I can hardly believe that it is finally, FINALLY fall. We are actually experiencing one here in CenLa, and lemme tell y’all — it is beautiful. For those of you who aren’t from around this area, the weather here is about as reliable as a coin toss. It can go either way… and sometimes, quite another. I pretty much hate coming to work now because I am missing the beauty of the days. I am (slightly) consoled, however, since my chair allows full view of the brilliant autumnal colors.
I think that’s my favorite — the colors, that is. Don’t get me wrong; the cool air (sans dripping humidity) is refreshing. But the colors. I’ve always found it peculiar that even in death the leaves are stunning — as if in their short “lives” they’ve lived extraordinarily. I adore, and sometimes envy, them for that.
Gabe and I… well, our own lives are changing although, thankfully, not dying. On the contrary — it blooms. Or so it would seem. Gabe and I are finally possessing some stability. A stability that has taken nearly a year (and lots of love and support) to cultivate. Relieved.. that would be putting it lightly. We have had a truly amazing support system and are finally ready to venture out away from our comfy spot… in the knowledge that we’ll be alright. We have already stumbled upon a few roadblocks, but have jolted back up just as quickly as we fell. For now, we opt to remain contented with what we have and just be happy.
Oddly, even in my relief, I am a bit saddened. I’m saying goodbye to what I’ve known for some time now and approaching something almost completely foreign. Granted, it’s not as dramatic a change as I make it out to be. I’m not saying goodbye to the people, just familiarity. But I’ve known this was coming for a while, as has everyone else. I’m ridiculous, I know.
At any rate, this is November. And the 2nd at that! And during this month of gratitude I choose to be thankful for hits & misses. Friends & family. Blessings — even tough ones that don’t go as I wanted them to. Thankful for health and wealth that most don’t have. This month I will be grateful. This month I will take a step back and take in everything that I’ve been given and try not to think about what I haven’t. Because maybe I haven’t earned it.. or maybe.. it’s a blessing in disguise.
I have so much to be thankful for, and for the next month I will try my damnedest to post about things I feel I’ve been blessed by. Whether it be people or events… although in no particular order.
The leaves, they are a’changin’. And they give me hope. Even as they die, they are lively. I will be grateful that as long I have breath in my body, I too can be vibrant. I too can live.